undescribable feelings

Hai guys.. post kali ni, i rasa macam nak describe about de feelings of what i have been through lately.. Mood status : HAPPEEEIYY!!. Yes, i am happy nowadays becoz i have my collegues as my friends. Thank you jgk kepada rakan seperjuangan yang lain [kawan2 kat pesbuk, new friends..], walau di mana saja u all berada.. All they do is being a joker and laughing all the time, man, cannot imagine it, my life without them. Hmm.. They all knew what i have been trough lately, but they do the best they can to cheer me up! Thank you so much guys.. i really2 love you all.. Tapi jangan kasi i ketawa sampai menangis tau.. hehe..

Laughing.. i used to laugh, laugh all i want, like there is no problem at all, eventhough de thing is funny like 10% only. Ey, jangan plak gelakkan org jatuh kerusi okay, that is rude. Haha, jahat betol.. Tapi, walaupun i masih ketawa..this time it is different, very2 different, i dunno where i lost it, sapa yang panjang tangan tuh??! Kasi balik, cepat! Aar, jenis ketawa tak pikir orang keliling plak tu, mau tunggu org baling sudu.. hahak.. tamo2 macam ni tamo ar..

Yeah.. i akan jadi macam ni, bila i betol2 sedih, something yg membebankan kepala hutak, something yang buleh buat i tertekan, something yg buat i rasa bersalah that i have to be responsible for it, tambah2 when i lose something i really love. Bila dah tak tahan dengan all that, i akan luahkan dengan air mata. Kadang2, sampai satu tahap i rasa macam nak bunuh diri ja..haha. Damn! What de hack i am thinking, tak sayang nyawa kah makcik..? And yes, might be for many days, and might be until it solved. Hmm ntahlah i will juz leave it to faith.. Do u believe in faith..?

Ermm if u all tgk picture ni, musti u all paham dah kan.. I harap ada someone out there whom can accept me as who i am. I rindu sangat saat2 macam ni, Bermanja dgn partner, teasing2, paham akan keperluan dan kehendak i, say 'love' to each other, and being the happiest person in the world..! Macam fairy tales.. [Dear God, if i ada bf, i janji akan jaga dia bersungguh2, takkan buat perangai lama dah..sekiranya itu yg perlu i korbankan for the relationship..] Haah! Rasa nak gilar bila think perihal partner thingy.. gundah gulana, jealous saja tgk couples lain jalan pimpin2 tangan.. (khiiii...)

Hmm, for the time being, sekian dahulu pasal my feelings, sebab mood i ni berbeza2, tak kenal tempat dan masa.. ~thumbs down to myself. Mmuaxx peeps! XOXO..